Thoughts unlimited
Friday 12 August 2016
The Itch
Saturday 7 November 2015
The Dilemma Of Sizes!
Saturday 26 September 2015
We Are Not Magicians!
Monday 3 August 2015
IT'S US....
Friday 1 May 2015
The Scotch...
'Wow do indians appreciate scotch this much?!' I looked up to see her amused dark eyes. Her accent was british and face really pretty. Appreciated or not i had ordered just on my whim and it was my third fill that drew her attention or maybe she did want to flirt i wasnt sure...appreciated or not scotch was making my mind a little numb and i was liking that. She sat with her drink next to me and i couldnt help but smile at her...' This is the first time i have tried scotch...not very experimental usually' I said. 'Well then let me tell you scotch does make men interesting!' she said. I wasnt sure what she was getting at it was just i liked looking at her. She shook my hand told me her name and what is it she does and i reciprocated, what is the harm a random stranger in a random bar flirting...holds some promise or not! We talked and laughed and talked some more when she got up...'Listen i am heading to my room in this hotel would you like to join me?'she said. My numb mind registered what she just said and i staggered up taking her hand and into the elevator off to her room in a blur...
It was not untill we started kissing that i heard a voice in my head...it was Trisha my wife's voice...
' I dont mind you cheating on me occasionally pranab...'
'WHAT! Are you out of your mind...which wife says that?' I had said.
'I am serious you can i wont mind but whenever you do please use a condom...please do because you are going to come back to me anyways' and she laughed her tickling laughter!
I stopped and blurted 'Condom! Do you have a condom?' She looked at me confused , 'yeah let me look in the washroom, just wait...'
My mind was no longer numb as soon as she left the room, i shifted uncomfortably and suddenly jerked up picked my jacket and left the room...ran down the stairs and out in the cold february air....
It was only when i was back home and saw my cold bed did i remember Trisha's cancer.....
Wednesday 29 April 2015
TO COVER IT ALL....
So its 8 am in the morning and i get his call..'I gave the gift you sent but she is asking why hasnt she called yet...so better call her.' 'She ' is my mother in law and its her birthday today whom i would have called anyways at an appropriate time because its all so new right now. And now i am sitting and wondering how i had told him casually to call my father as he was having some health issues...and how i cannot push him so much to do that because you see guys resent nagging not to mention he hasnt found the time yet to do that. I cant help myself but to think is this going to be a lifelong thing because of course i am going to his home and so i have more liability of such things. And i feel so sad all of a sudden because neither my parents nor his will have any issues with this. For my folks once i leave their home am no longer theirs to claim. He can stay as out of touch as he can as i will fill the gaps. But as i have to look after two families from now on stating the obvious i can never leave my parents emotionally isnt it supposed to be a shared thing between a couple. Indian dictum is clear whereby my parents wont expect things from me but can i leave them? I cant...they have given me everything i have today or who i am...my upbringing wont allow me to ignore his parents...so will i be able to strike a balance?!
Saturday 4 April 2015
Here's what i got...
Deepika Padukone – "My Choice" Directed By Homi Adajania - Vogue Empower: https://youtu.be/KtPv7IEhWRA
First thing first i will like to thank and congratulate the team of director and the several women from different walks of life in producing this video. When I saw this i felt that it is an expression of some part of myself which is constantly struggling and questioning with choices i want to make. Its true i belong to the liberated empowered and so called 'elite' species of women but does that mean i have full freedom to exercise my choices?! And this is happening in all strata of society in varying degrees. Woman of today is in constant spotlight...the more she is liberated the most her freedom is being curtailed. It is truly my choice to decide my career, my family life and as basic as my food preferences without being judged. But it is also my choice to marry or not or at what age and when to have a family. If you are trying to make me equal then why am i constantly reminded in small small things that i am a woman! Why do i feel scared to be outside alone at night or why should i work my ass off so that my work is never scrutinised based on my gender?! As for being of an elite class trust me the choice of having or not having sex is never truly a woman's choice in any socioeconomic group when its a man's priviledge to abuse her in a marriage. Also if she chooses to go out to a movie with a male friend she is open to be raped! It opened my eyes to the fact that being a female myself how i myself judge my clan in so many ways. Being truly empowered doesnt come with the facility to education or right to vote it also comes with the influence free vote and equal opportunity in all that we do....I am glad my country is slowly waking up to question what exactly is my freedom and equality!